"I'm tired of laying low. Let's give the world a show." - Travis Mcvoy
It's been almost a month since I've written in this blog. A month of introspection. A month of trying to figure out my life. I'm not much further along than I was when I wrote in August at the outset of this search.
A routine physical at the beginning of September resulted in a myriad of scheduled tests - most just because I am a woman of a certain age, one because the results of routine screening weren't ideal. Several sleepless nights ensued but the worry turned out to be unnecessary. Next week I will see a new eye specialist in an effort to determine if anything can be done to fix my left eye. The veil has not lifted nor has the flashing subsided. And I'm not getting used to it in spite of the terse direction to do so by the first specialist I saw. A series of heart tests which were scheduled for last Monday, will be rescheduled for sometime in the coming weeks as the lab suffered an equipment breakdown just prior to my tests. An MRI of my still inflamed shoulder will follow in a few weeks. When I begin to think that this aging thing really sucks, I remind myself of the only alternative to aging and it suddenly doesn't seem so bad.
For the most part, I've been laying low, hoping to get inspired as to my next great move. I'm not enjoying my work much these days. Not feeling very creative. Not feeling very social. But I'm trying and maybe that counts for something. For now, it's all I've got so it will have to do.
Hey Jackie
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear you are no further along on your search, at time like these I always refer back to the saying that 'happiness is not a destination, it is a journey'. The journey may not always be a smooth one, and there will definitely be peaks and troughs along the way.
These peaks and troughs are where we learn most about ourselves, sometimes they may not be things we like and at other times they may be things we never thought possible.
Remember to enjoy this time of reflection, your journey may not be taking you down the route you expected, and it may snake back on it's self on occasion, whichever route you eventually turn down remember to enjoy the ride.
I'm sorry to hear that your shoulder is still giving you grief, and pleased to hear you are being referred about your eye. I'm also pleased to hear the other results came back clear, even if the waiting game was a little nerve racking.
I too am suffering at the moment, I am 99% sure I have torn the largest tendon in my foot, in fact I did it before we came to visit you guys. I'm awating a trip to ultra sound and then a visit to the orthopaedic consultant and potentially surgery or at the very least some painful injections! This injury has however mean't I've had to purchase another pair of shoes.....what a shame!
You are surrounded by wonderful friends and family, and I'm sure your amazing sisters are looking after you but if you ever need another shoulder I'm always happy to jump on a plane.
Missing my Toronto Family
Em xx
Em, if I had known that was all it would take to get you on a plane back to Toronto, I would have blogged about my angst weeks ago. :) Hope you feel better soon. Miss you.
DeleteJ.
Ah Jackie, you could have just shown me a slice of cake! he he! Thanks, had a long day on the foot today so having a meal out this evening. xx
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