“A good many things go around in the dark besides Santa Claus.” - Herbert Hoover
Dear Santa,
I realize I've left it a little late to send in my Christmas list. The truth is, I've been struggling with getting into the spirit this year. It took me ages to even come up with a theme for our family Christmas. In a time when the world seems very dark, I decided our theme this year would be light. Our Christmas Eve table will be laid out accordingly.
Usually the things I ask for at Christmastime are gifts for someone else. It actually feels a bit selfish to ask for something for myself this year but I'm going to do it anyway. Santa, could you please give me my confidence back?
I lost a piece of it when my heart stopped working and I had to have surgery in March. I lost a bigger piece of it when I realized I had misjudged a client whose bills have gone unpaid for nearly a year. I lost the rest on November 8 watching the U.S. election results.
I'm trying hard to believe things will work out well but I just can't get there. I'm concerned about every twitch in my chest, wary about every business encounter, heartsick about the fallout from the election not just in the U.S. but here in Canada too. Though this is normally my favorite week, I'm struggling to find the joy this year. Shining my light seems to be doing little to illuminate the darkness.
Santa, I realize I'm asking for a lot and maybe you can't deliver a request like mine. But if there is anything you can do to help, I'd be really grateful. I'll keep trying too. Safe travels on Christmas Eve and Merry, Merry Christmas.
Love
Jackie
